Purely Ornamental Projections
I grew up in a family of naturally large-busted and unnaturally emotionally-abusive women. During some of the most formative years of my life they amused themselves endlessly by tormenting me about my tiny stature and most especially, my small breasts. It was hardly surprising that while my breasts were failing to develop, a huge emotional complex was developing in their place. [Those same women later went on to develop considerable weight-gain issues while I have remained slender and athletic.]
After college I got involved in heavy weight-training, but not to any masculine extent. The people at my gym loved my body, small breasts and all. As did my former husband. And yet, I still could not shrug off the years of small-bust-complex. I wanted bigger breasts for ME. During that general time period, a photographer in Hollyweird told me that I was pretty enough and had a nice enough body that I could get some modelling work if only I had bigger breasts. I decided to go for bust (heh) and have breast enlargement surgery. I scrimped and saved and sacrificed for months to raise the money. The photographer turned out to be absolutely right. Somehow that saddened me. But the money I earned from the occasional modelling job sure helped cheer me up.
I had multiple complications from the surgery and not long after that my breast tissue hardened around the implants (encapsulation). I found out quite recently that used to be a fairly common occurrence due to the surgical technique at that time. The old complex rose up and engulfed me again. For years I had to endure people constantly informing me that my breasts were hard. Which I really appreciated because I wouldn’t have known without the ugly comments and regular reminders. I began to dread hugging people and I developed a sort of one-armed-from-the-side hug. Friends and lovers, people who claimed to care about me and my feelings, thought nothing of making brutally callous remarks about my hard breasts.
Nowadays most women really don’t care who knows they have breast implants. They tend to be very upfront (grin) about it. For the longest time, however, there was a considerable stigma attached to boob-jobs, much like there used to be with tattoos. One time when I was still in the sworn-to-secrecy stage some friends and I went to a female impersonator show. The drag queen hostess (who was gorgeous) announced to the entire club from the stage that I had “great tits”. One of my so-called friends promptly yelled out that they were fake. Did I mention that two of my coworkers were in our group? It was one of the most humiliating moments of my entire life.
This year, I finally decided it was time to go back through the scrimping and saving and the pain of surgery in order to have soft breasts. I found a wonderful surgeon in Houston. He is one of the best surgeons in his field. This time around I opted for the second time to have silicone implants. While I wanted softer breasts, I still wanted them to be firm as I have an athletic body. The first time around encapsulation occurred due to the old-style surgical technique and not the type of implants. I chose cohesive gel implants this time as they do not leak even if ruptured. [Incidentally, my old implants were completely intact when removed.] The surgery was immensely painful again. I bled a lot and had to stay in recovery for longer than expected. But the results are worth every penny and every moment of agony. They are (finally) soft and bouncy and perky and beautifully natural in shape and feel. They squish when pressed and I can hug face-on. I’m finding it impossible to keep my hands off myself. Even at rest I find my hands sliding up to gently squeeze my breasts.
People used to ask me if I got more attention after the first boob-job, but truthfully I got just as much attention before the surgery. As outgoing as I can often be, it’s rather difficult to ignore me. So, yes, I have breast implants. Feel free to trot out your overused boob-job insults, your unsolicited statements about not wanting a boob-job, or your inconsequential view about not liking “fake” boobs. Henceforth I shall retaliate by making just as outrageous remarks about YOUR physique . . . so unless you have a perfect body/face/teeth/hair/whatever, you might want to keep your insulting remarks to yourself. You have been warned. Here’s where I stand on the subject: If you don’t like boob-jobs then don’t get one … beyond that, don’t concern yourself.
Bearing in mind that they are barely four days old and still settling, here’s how they look right now:
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Yes, they’re FAKE . . . and they’re SPECTACULAR!
October 31st, 2005 at 9:45 am
They look wonderful! It’s funny you say that you can’t keep your hands off of them..well..I am the same way! I had mine done in September and yes my hands stay on them constantly..heehee. Can’t wait to see ya over the holidays!
October 31st, 2005 at 10:22 am
Oh my, you look beautiful! They are very well proportioned (I’m glad you didn’t feel the need to go the Pamela Anderson route) and look completely real.
Not that that makes any difference.
I have the opposite problem: mine are bigger than I’d like them to be. Pregnancy and weight gain have taken their toll, sadly. Once I lose my weight I’d like to have mine lifted, put back there they belong. I miss my perky Bs.
October 31st, 2005 at 10:56 am
Oh, you perky boobed hoar!! I am so jealous.
They look fantastic!!
October 31st, 2005 at 11:01 am
Now it’s time for the squeeze-test…
:-P
October 31st, 2005 at 11:21 am
GORGEOUS! I have boob envy. I want your doctor’s name.
October 31st, 2005 at 11:43 am
VERY nice work. They look (and I am sure feel) wonderful.
Sorry to disappoint, but hto I have a far from perfect physique , I also lack boob jokes. In fact I am all for boobjobs when a woman wants em. If they are to correct a phsyical deformity go for it. If they are to shore up self image and confidence, get em done. I just say, that like tattoos, only get em for yourself not cuz somebody else says you need em. And I think you have that covered girl.
And for any of you ladies that are considering getting work done, I would gladly contribute the the meat from my he-titties. (See I even saved you time lookin for a slam LoL).
Nuke }:-
October 31st, 2005 at 12:20 pm
I always thought it was funny that women are always up in arms about other womens boobs. If you had breast implants or you didn’t they are still boobs. Everyone likes Boobs, my gay brother still likes tits it is a universal thing. To have your breasts inhanced to me is no worse then having anything else done to make you look good/better then before.
I don’t make fun of people who get their teeth streightened, or have their stomache stapled, or wear glasses. Why would you care if they were real or fake, as long as they aren’t turned into a cadillac, then fuck whatever makes you happy.
I like your tits. If I were you I’d keep them.
October 31st, 2005 at 12:26 pm
Did the Dr.s also take your pants away? I noticed that you were showing us the new hooters, but you were also pantless. Is there a direct correlation?
Just checking, Not that I mind..I really am just checking.
I think my computer is broken, I can’t get the picture to pan down.
October 31st, 2005 at 1:37 pm
They certainly look nice. I’m amazed that after 4 days they don’t look worse (and whan I say worse, I mean bruised up and oddly shaped). Interesting…
October 31st, 2005 at 2:35 pm
Wow, you are not kidding! They are spectacular. I am all for boobjobs. If it makes you happy then why not? I have always had naturally large breasts but let me tell you, if that changes after having kids or whatever I have no problem getting them “fixed”. You rock and so do your luscious tits!
October 31st, 2005 at 2:36 pm
Spectacular is the wrong word. Spanktacular! I’m going to take a shower
October 31st, 2005 at 4:03 pm
Also: I like how you keep your freckles in your pictures. I always erase mine. I’ve never had a problem with them so I don’t know why I do this.
October 31st, 2005 at 5:25 pm
Be proud of ‘em!! I think they are fantastic and I wouldn’t be able to keep my hands of of them either if I was the bf. Are you coming over for salad?
October 31st, 2005 at 5:47 pm
Nice tits, babe! You should have a “Boob Shot” of the day on every post you do!
October 31st, 2005 at 7:18 pm
Well, I have to say you are very brave to reveal your new breasts. Congratulations on the scrimping and saving, I would jump through hoops of fire to get breasts that perky! They look gorgeous - you should be very proud (it’s almost like you are a new mommy!)
For those of you out there that are well endowed (and not exactly perky) search for laserbra. That’s what I’m going to have. It’s fantastic!!
October 31st, 2005 at 8:01 pm
I’m jealous as well! Mine are big and ugly! God knows you already knew that!
Mostly I’m glad you’re feeling better…. I’m surprised you didn’t share more gory details! I thought we had a fun couple of days! I’ll just keep my mouth shut and let you tell the stories you want. But I will say again that I’m sorry I lost you at the hospital…. you really should choose your helpers more wisely! And I will miss milking you.
October 31st, 2005 at 10:15 pm
Aww, they’re cute! But then I’m a big breast fan (and a fan of big breasts) pretty much regardless so I know that my opinion doesn’t count, but I’m ok with that.
November 1st, 2005 at 12:08 pm
I am thankful everything worked right. Thank you for sharing, they look wonderful.
November 1st, 2005 at 1:14 pm
I’d like to thank all of you swell folks for your kindness and support.
November 1st, 2005 at 2:28 pm
Dude. Those look flawless…even after 4 days.
November 1st, 2005 at 4:02 pm
Nice tits.
November 3rd, 2005 at 12:12 am
Thats it! Im getting a boob job!
Only 4 days!? Wow…they really do look awesome. But you know that
November 4th, 2005 at 1:52 pm
I think they’re spectacular!
I’m very jealous!
I have big old honkers naturally….but baby….your store bought beauties beat mine all to pieces.
Good for you.
Thanks for telling your story.
I’m always curious as to what leads someone to this surgery.
Interesting.
I’ll be back.
November 9th, 2005 at 5:25 pm
I think its silly for people to make fun of you and they only go at that because its all they can think of.
November 30th, 2005 at 1:15 pm
What was your doctors name? And how were you able to get the cohesive gell implants? I didn’t think they were legal in America yet. I was thinking of going up to Canada to have that done. You doctor did a magnificaent job. They look totaly real. And they feel real??? Really??? Thats one thing i am really woried about. I read that the cohesive gel implants feel too dense. I want bigger breasts soooo bad, but only if they will be identical to real breasts. I would not be happy with anything that looked or felt fake. I have been contemplating breast implants for a very long time now, and i’ve been too afraid to do it becasue all the ones i’ve seen look fake. What size were you before the implants? How many CC’s did you get? Thanks for sharing your story and pictures. And if you have the time, i’de love to see some more recent pictures. Thanks.
November 30th, 2005 at 1:31 pm
Also one more question… did you get them under the muscle or infront of the muscle? I was just reading about how implants look funny when you flex if they are placed under the muscle. Are your implants noticable when you position your arms in certain ways or flex? And what about when you lie down… do your breasts still look natural? Thanks.
November 30th, 2005 at 5:46 pm
Hullo Julia, my namesake, and welcome to my world. Let me see if I can answer all your questions in order.
Dr. Neal Reisman — he is a top-notch surgeon based in Houston. He also lectures all over the U.S. and Europe. He is also a law school grad.
Cohesive gel implants are not yet FDA-approved, however, they are being tested. Obviously, to test them there have to be surgeons using them in surgery. Dr. Reisman is one of those surgeons.
As far as the “feel real” question? well, that’s seriously subjective because breasts, natural or otherwise, can feel dramatically different depending on the woman’s body type. My natural breasts were VERY firm. I have weight-trained for many years so I have a LOT of pectoral muscle which also gives my present breasts considerably more firmness. And yes, gel implants are denser and thus firmer. But, personally, I WANT firm breasts because I have an athletic body. To a light touch my breasts feel VERY soft, but if squeezed hard they feel firm. Anybody who squeezes me that hard is going to get kicked in the shins.
I was originally a 32A. I am now a 36C. I think my first implants were 240cc and the current ones are 280cc.
Placement: Dr. Reisman invented a new technique of placing the upper portion of the implant under the muscle and the lower portion over the muscle. This produces a much more natural breast slope versus the “upper pole fullness” that make implants so obvious. I haven’t noticed anything particularly weird or unusual when flexing or moving my arms around. Lying down the breasts do “flatten out” somewhat but not a whole lot. My stance on that is that I don’t WANT my breasts to disappear under my armpits when I lie down!
When it comes to plastic surgery, you have to be realistic about your expectations and what results you may get. To expect implanted breasts to be an exact replica of a natural breast is simply not realistic.
I haven’t taken any more photos since the ones posted here which are a month old. I will probably do a shoot some time this month IF I get the time.
Hopefully that answers all your questions. All I can tell you is that I love my breast implants and I don’t care if they don’t look/feel 100% natural. In a lot of ways, that is the very POINT!